2009-07-02T22:11:00.001-07:00

I understand everything now...

When one starts to get backstabbed and betrayed by people, one must not blame the others.

That's my first mistake.

When people starts hating you and telling bad stuff behind your back, leave them alone.

My second mistake.

When you know that your "good" friend betrayed you, she isn't your friend at all.

My third and most horrid mistake.

When everyone seems to hate you, you're that bitch.

Another mistake, but i found out only just a few hours ago....

Everyone betrays me. Good friends, and friends. All this is because of who i am. The problem is not them, like i told myself. The problem now lies with me. I'm the dark horse among all of them white horse. I'm the asshole, the bad kid. I gossip, but i DONOT BACKSTAB.

I have an attitude, i know. I can't change. I'm an idiot to believe anyone now. Why am i such an idiot to think that people would keep my gossips to themselves. However, i will keep their gossips safe with me. I won't let anything out...

Bye,

That bitch everyone lies to.

2009-06-04T08:47:00.000-07:00

My feelings: Numb.

To friend A: Not talking to you.

Reason 1: I have nothing to say to you. You don't trust me, and i don't trust you. You don't tell me your secrets, do you think i would tell you mine?

Reason 2: You always give LAME excuses. You're afraid to give me present? Seriously? Fyi, it's the the first time i've heard this.

Reason 3: I don't know how to face you anymore.

Reason 4: You made me realize that you're the mastermind/backstabber. I am EFFING stupid to have believed you. And to tell you gossips.

Reason 5: You never said sorry at all. I made you angry once, and i said sorry. Did you? NO.

Reason 6: You change emotions so quickly. You can be such a good friend, and an awful person. Who the hell are you? I can tell you that i forgave you already. Even if we can become friends, we won't be good friend. I can't never be good friends with you anymore. You backstabbed me. Not once, but three times. Do you think i don't know? Sec 1 and 2, i might be stupid. I aint anymore. I'm in sec 3 and i know it's been you all along. Always you. Whenever i have problems with her, it's always you. Stop backstabbing me, okay? Are you a homo? Do you want her all to yourself? It appalls me. So, you can hate me. I don't care. I don't give a damn anymore. I've thought of transfering out. But, why? You're the villain here. I'm the victim. You've played this game well. I admit i've lost. I'm a loser. But later in life, i'm gonna show you how much better i am. How much better i can be without you as a good friend. I don't need you as a friend at all. If i can start over, i wont even wanna talk to you.

To friend B: Not talking to you

Reason 1: Although you might think what you said was just a joke. I took it seriously.

I've forgiven you. I hope you received the present. I'm sorry for not talking to you. You've forgiven me for so many times. How can i not forgive you this time? I know you didn't tell me who told you all those things i've said. But i know very well who it is. I aint stupid. Let's just forget all this. I'll treat as though we are friends. Normal friends. We can say hello. Talk. But, i doubt i'd wanna be like last time.

It's been two years. It's fun being friends with you guys. But, it's done. Now. I'll make new friends. let's just hope we dont go to the same poly. (:

2009-06-04T07:48:00.001-07:00

hellos

I'm Enough.